We're talking again, I'm starting to feel unclear about his intention, neither mine. Maybe we're just tired to living in such tired situation, holding on our feelings and act like we're not in love. God, I'm afraid, yet I hold on to some hope that we might work things out. I'm ready, like ever ready for his next leaving, however, am I really as ready as I said? How long will these last? When will we part again? Indeed, it's a choice this time.