Tuesday, April 05, 2011 @ 12:42 PM
Heart beating fast when I see you, hands trembling when I text you, eyes tearing when I read your replies, heart breaking when I think about you, friend, finally you're just a friend to me. Too much changes, I can barely count. From top to bottom, in and out. It's stupid to change for a person but I'm glad I didn't change to the bad eventhough I know I've did many stupid things, but this is my learning process. I've learn not to hold on too long, not everytime in life following our heart is the right thing. You pull me out from my unrealistic world, showed me how life could be. You used to say I'm a small girl, maybe I am still to you, but you know? You know how much I've grown up? You wasn't with me most of the time, but you taught me a lot, with your cold attitude, straight forward rejections and behaviour. I don't blame you though I really dislike you for how heartless you were. But I know why you did all these. Because I was too stubborn, too irritating, if I were you, I would do the same thing too. Thinking back, you're nice enough to me. Never once you didn't reply me. Though you used stupid excuses but now when I think back..thank you so much for at least using excuses to shoo me off. Haha. Maybe from the start till now we've too much, too much that we don't understand, or rather we misunderstoos each other's intension. Now, when time passed, when I don't see things so near anymore, I realised many things, understand many things, and this are things you've been hoping I would understand, am I right? :)