Wednesday, March 09, 2011 @ 11:12 AM
Consistently letting people in my life, my mistake. If I could be stronger, everything wouldn't be like that. What people feel seems more important than how myself feel. Life should not be like that isn't it? I should feel for myself, my happiness is more important than anything, am I not right? Everyone seems selfish, they kept showing me how they feel, force me to think for them, give in. Oh come on, how much more you want? Tell me. Stop being selfish can you? I don't think I can hold it any further. I'm enough of giving in. Stop telling me what to do, I hate people who control my life.Stop threatening me of how bad you would feel, if you love me, you would stop because you know I'll feel bad.Don't find me anymore, I don't want to see you.Stop asking me question and don't get it when I answer.And for those friends, I still feel the pain because I trusted you guys. Those trust wasn't there anymore when those words came out from your mouth. Please remember this, I'm still with your not because I need your, it's because I want your to be still in my life because I believe one day, I won't be misunderstand anymore.I know I've fallen for someone else, but I believe no matter how many more guys I'm going to fall for, I will never love them more than I love you. Everytime I look at you, talk to you, I feel heartache. There's so much I want to tell you because I know you misunderstood my actions so much. But can you at least know, I'm trying so hard to move on all because I love you that much. The saddest part is not being able to have you in my life anymore, even as a friend.