Wednesday, February 09, 2011 @ 11:30 PM
I don't know how long I can take it. I just want to be happy again, can I?Whenever I see people moving on like no mama business, I swear I admire them to the max. They might seems heartless, they might hurt someone who really love them and they really love but they are the ones who really knows how to love themselves. So shouldn't we admire them for that?This few days, I kept reminding myself, those days are over. But you know, you know how difficult is it to really accept it? Do you mean those days dosen't matters to you at all? Do you? I hate crying at night, non stop thinking during day time, feeling so awful yet I have to keep on going, tell my stories to people like a joke when my heart is bleeding and having this stupid brain which never become sensible. God, are you sure I can pull this through? Are you sure you have better plans for me? Are you sure the next guy can get my trust? Maybe he can, but he gonna leave me anyway, right? Ask me why am I so negative. Don't ask stupid question, try experiencing it. Try it. My heart is too weak, so please stop. Wake me up, from all these. I hate tearing, I hate feeling helpless. Please, I beg you, let me off. Wei Shan, it's time to wake up. Please.