Wednesday, December 22, 2010 @ 9:56 PM
I'm really crappy when every single time, when holiday is here, things happen. Good things I won't mind, but why is it always bad thing? Holiday seriously have some issues with me.It's sad to know the person who always stand by you still could not understand your thoughts and actions.Recent years, suddenly I realised how many people I've chased out of my life. Knowing they're important to me but still letting them leave. It's hard to say why, maybe I just don't want to wait till they leave me. I don't want to be left watching them leave anymore. You know, it's really nice receiving a text from you today. I know how sad you felt when we were ending the conversation, I felt really sad too. But you know, if I hold you back, I just don't know what gonna happen. If weekday is gonna be like my weekend, fine, I won't stop you as long as after all these, you can show me light.I hate to live in fear, it's not supposed to be like that. I should see everything with a positive mind set. Not feeling afraid, afriad it'll be like that past.Friend, how are you doing up there? Until now, I still have this thought of, "Why leave? Why leave us?", I might not feel better if you are still with us but friend, I miss you. "Smile and chase Mr Sadness away", you said. Does that really works, friend?