Saturday, September 25, 2010 @ 9:20 PM
I'm tired, you know?I didn't admit it but obviously I know how special you are. I don't know what you want, really. You said I confused you, you know, you confuse me even harder. Pardon me for blogging me all this, understand that this is the only place I can really use words to describe myself. I don't born to wait. I'm sick and tired of waiting. Yes, if that's what I want, why not? But, I have no idea what is worth waiting anymore. Can you give me some hints? I told you I just need someone to guide me, it's you! Maybe you understand, maybe you don't but whatever it is, forget it. We just don't seems to get things right. You made me smile, in fact, you made me melt. But you failed to stay throughout. You failed to prove me what I thought was wrong, you failed to stay with me. You know how hurting is that? I feel like saying "You freak!" right to your face! To your FACE! You throw me down from heaven you bitch! Now what you want me to do? I don't have directions anymore. You make me feel so useless, so weak, so stupid. Playing me around. Shouldn't I be more careful? Didn't I prevent myself from getting all these shit? Don't worry, I experienced it before, I don't want this to be worst than before. I move on, I'll move on.