Tuesday, March 09, 2010 @ 12:15 AM
Some much things had happened at work today that I don't even know it had actually benefitted me or actually disappointed me somehow. I realised so many many things that it actually happened too fast that I wasn't able to accept and react to it.First, I can't deny I had hell lots fun with him. I could say, with his company I feel..happy. Really happy. I laugh, I do whatever I want. The way he talks do attracts me but what is fixed is fixed. Age is a big thing, position is another big thing. I guess I deeply understand what is the meaning of impossible. In life, I can want lots of things but I'm only willing to wait for one thing. And thats defitnately not what I'm having today.Second, I realised how selfish people can get. What matters seems to only be people that are cloesest to them. What about someone who got hurt even more? That does not ever matter to them because, that person never relates to them. I think thats really selfish, really, though it's always something typical. And this reminds me of this. You only think of what you want/don't want, without thinking the pain I'm going through.Third, that really hurts me by showing me that look. I seems to be someone so irresponsible suddenly. How could you not trust me? Thinking that I'm trying to not do my work. You don't have to say. Action speaks louder than words. But you showed the wrong action woman. I swear I was really trying hard to hide my uncomfortable and help out but you're seeing me as someone who are trying to lie and get some rest. That really disappoint me because I really thought you would understand.