Thursday, February 11, 2010 @ 10:30 AM
I clearly remember who was the one who stayed with me when he hurt me badly, I deeply undertand who treats me best and I really know where have we finally come to. I'm reacting, I can't deny that or lie about that. There are certain things I can't control, I can't stop. I'm in a difficult position that nobody understands. If I were given a choice I hope I was born stronger, not a thinker and not someone who..live for others. I really don't know whats in my mind now. Theres a millions of flashback but I have to stop them! I have to! I can't go further anymore, I can't! My thoughts are drving me to one corner, I'm seriously depress. I'm seriously going crazy! I start to don't know how to explain, I don't know how to say it out, let it out anymore. Its so pain inside, so empty inside and so terrible inside. I'm scared of losing but at the same time I want to run away from it. I don't even know since when facing the fact is so difficult.