Sunday, January 31, 2010 @ 11:05 PM
I'm a bad woman.I screwed up my party yesterday, seriously screwed up. I don't blame the parents for complaining me, I know paying so much money for such bad party is seriously not worth. I guess thats really my worst party so far. I really feel sorry for that but I really don't what else I can do to change anything. The helpless feeling, I hope I'll never experience it ever again. Looking at them, not respecting me, ignoring me, screaming and shouting, I swear at that point of time I feel so useless. I think I'm really lucky enough to stay till the end of the party. I was struggling throughout the party and I'll promise, that will be the last time. I knoe there are certain things that will stop me from achieving all this but I'm so going to let myself achieve all that. Greatest achievement of the day: Azra and Alya's birthday party was..PERFECT! :)PS: I know I can't take back my words, what is said, is said, what is done, its done. I want to go back to the past, but I guess my courage and embarrassment is bringing me nowhere. I'm..feeling so sad. I can't stand this feeling. I feel like shit!