Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 9:49 AM
How sad can that be when we've gone to an extend that someone is needed for us to start a conversation? I'm seriously at a loss of words now. I've no idea how is this going to carry on. I've no courage to face all these. I've no confidence I can get back to normal like before. I've no idea who am I now. Why am I crying so easily nowadays. I'll never forget how much I struggled yesterday just to stop myself from thinking. I'm seriously going insane. Before every message I send it to you, I've to pluck out so much of my courage, after I finally had to the courage to send it to you, I've accept we can't talk again. I took more and more time to pluck out my courage after every single message I send it to you. Now, I'm so shock, I don't even dare to think of texting you. This is the first time I feel so helpless, I guess I've used up all my courage on you.