You took me away with you~

Work time seems to become my reflecting time nowadays. I've thought a lot recently, as in, really a lot. When I was working today, I saw this two kids, Joshua and Jazz. I've deep impression in them because probably the friendship and care I saw between them was what I always wanted. I wonder what will happen to them when they grow older, will they get drifted or even closer? Lets hope they'll get even closer. :) Why didn't I had such childhood friend?

I've started to move on. Mandy is right, without him, without talking to him, nothing is changing in my life. Or should I say..my life is getting better? I still do think, I still do care that a bit, but my feeling tells me its different this time. I don't miss him because I miss him anymore, sometimes I just force myself to remember him to prevent myself from falling into another trap. He's a great lesson to me, no one had taught me that much by hurting me.

A friend of mine told me this, "If those who are important to you shows you that you're not important to them, they don't worth you to tresure them."

He's now different post from us, although I know you're still you but still..something is different. We can't play together anymore. Not because we don't want to but you are in a difficult position if you do that.

Despite remembering everybody's, always remembering theirs in mind, I still feel that mine is never remembered. I feel simply forgotten and not being important. I don't know whether is this kind of feeling right, am I over sensitive because that might be only what I'm thinking.

Prom Night!


Brion.

Geraldine and Kenny.


他说过他喜欢我，他说过他在乎我。但他并没有，他最擅长的是伤害我，敷衍我，欺骗我。在你眼里我永远是那什么都不懂的小妹妹。但你从来不知道你那所谓的小妹妹为你改变了多少。和你趁经说过，做过的事情我一个也没忘过。不是应为它们是多么的难忘，多么快乐，而是应为它们对我是多么的珍贵。你一定觉得我是个白痴，为了你我应该真的是。但现在就让我和你的回忆就停在这里吧。在多下去也没意义。。
我从来没说过，但我最大的愿望只是跟你两个人走一段路就够了。
我坚持，努力了那么久，这次让我洒脱我放下吧。

The only reason I'm still there is because you were once there.

I wanted to let natural take its course but I failed once again. Yes, I could control myself better this time but, maybe I'm still me. I guess you can easily predict what I gonna do next easily because I'm always repeating the same circle. I felt the pain again. This pain is never a bit lesser than the previous time, but just getting use to it. I told my dearest friend, you're different this time but you proved me wrong once again. You're never different. You're never going to change. I never had chance to really get you, that was what I thought it was a waste. How I hope I could faster look your true colour and let go but I can't. Remember what you told me when we were strolling round the mega play. You said, "I really don't know how to talk to you.", shoudn't I get the hint since then? Why the hell I went to try all over again to get the same reply? I wanted to text you first when I finish my O level but I guess I'm thinking too highly of myself. My text is never a "something" to you.


-People learn from their mistake but me?