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Tuesday, April 28, 2009 @ 8:50 PM
I was feeling really bad and irritated yesterday, the first person I thought of is you. I don't know why and I always thought I had free myself from this bad habit. I took a long time to think before I text, I had a deep considerations because I seems to have predicted what will happen. However, I'm still the same, always believe maybe it'll be different this time.
I'm wrong. You ended the message the same style. Never fail to give me stupid excuses. How I hope I could just pick up my courage and tell you off but I know I can never.
Had dinner with Nicole just now. A short day but still.. longer then Geraldine and I's day. Haha! READ THIS WOMAN! Haha. Alright, mid-year is coming, people, work hard! :)
Monday, April 13, 2009 @ 10:06 PM
Had a great gathering with cousins yesterday. I've not seen some of them for quite a long time. Haha. Just by talking with them made my day. They'll talk about their funny life experiences. ChiKeong one was really funny. Haha! Alright. HAPPY BIRYHDAY AHMA! Haha!
P.S: I'm really very glad I saw you once more, your smile was still there, telling me you're here.
Thursday, April 02, 2009 @ 10:03 PM
People, just bear with me today and let me to say all these at one shot alright?
Its only a few months but I guess its enough for me to recollect during the next few months. At the beginning of the year, I was thinking, thinking really much about which way is the best way I should go but until this year's CNY eve, whatever that happened, I knew I was left with no other choices. You gave me no reason to run away from it, no reason at all. Remember the first time I saw you, I know myself, you're different, i knew what'll happened. You'll never understand how much I've did to prevent all these from happening but I could only say I wasn't strong enough. Remember the day I ask you about him, I already don't know whats my aim. Until now, I still don't know. I was so touched when you remembered to bring what I wanted, I was seriosuly.. touched. Maybe things I've did to control myself are really a waste of time, I guess. I like the way you talked to me, smile at me. At that time I could still feel, this is the person I like, he is my friend but now.? Remember when I texted you that night. I was so touched by what you said. I guess I'll never forget, never. Although I know you'll never be there for me anymore but just let me remember you once said that to me. Let me remember you once stayed with me when you're needed. Its hard asking me to let go now, not because whatever reasons I had last time, its not a habit that I have but a feeling I have for you.
PS: Now I know the truth, I know where your heart belongs to. Its a pain to me but at the same time, I know its something I should know.