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Saturday, March 28, 2009 @ 11:01 PM
During this three months, I could say I relied too much on him. Theres basically nothing between us except for the phone calls we have almost everyday. Whenever this stopped for a few days, I feel..weird. I know its wrong and I should stop all these but I can't. Its becoming a habit, a bad habit actually. At times, I feel scared, scared that everything will just stop like that, I mean at the end of this year. I know it sounds really wrong but thats what i'm feeling now. I know I can never thank you enough. Whenever I need your help you'll always be there helping without any complaints. I never believe theres such nice person in this world until I saw what you did for me. And I guess, other than you, nobody is willing to help someone without asking for any returns. :) Thank you.
Okay, I really had a great fun with Geraldine and Nadine yesterday. I don't know how to explain how much I actually enjoyed myself but I hope you woman enjoyed too. Haha! I know your did. Lol! Love ya!
6days has passed. I've slowly feel better day by day. I know I got to accept all these. I know.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009 @ 8:19 PM
Finally I got some ideas for my art. And of course I'll have to thanks Mandy for helping me to brain storm. She asked me not to drop, she say she'll, definately help me and she did. Mandy, thanks for that and guess what? Our idea is encouraged by teacher too. :) I know if you're reading this you'll say, "Of course! You know who I am? ALimJQ." Haha! Never failed to be proud of yourself and of course your friend WeiShan is proud to have you a friend too. :) I know I've neglected you this few months but don't worry, although I know I'll be busy during the March holiday I'll squeeze so time for you! Haha. Love you woman!
A very short and random msg made my day. I know I can't ask for more, at times I know I've go too far but I hope you understand its because I can't control myself. No matter what, thanks for everything. Really.
During this one month, I had think a lot. Really a lot, nonsense and of course things that are relavent. :P I know, I can't expect everything to be whatever I want it to be. Things just cannot be forced. Thats what I always told myself in the past. I'm always thinking how I should achieve what I want but I tend to forget whats the thing I wanted at first. People just got desperate, just got bind by what they want. However, I'm glad before I went too far, someone wake me up. And she's no one other then Geraldine. Don't be shock woman. Remember what you told me. "WeiShan, remember what you said at the beginning of the year? " ," You forgot about what you said?" Geraldine, you reminded me, you brought me back to relality. I'm facing it now and also achieving what we want! Thanks Geraldine. :)
Never forget Priscilia who came school because of me today. I knew you'll come and you came. Thanks. :)
Friday, March 06, 2009 @ 11:04 PM
Time spend with Priscilia today wasn't that long but I had lots of fun. Thank god the time didn't pass really that fast if not, I guess that few hours will not be enough. Haha. Finally had a great long talk and photo taking session with her. Haven't took so many photos with her for SO long. Haha! Had my MOS Burger for dinner, finally Priscilia. I said I wanted it since.. sec3? Haha! Thats freaking long. But, thinking back, time really flies. Haha! Had many beatings from Priscilia, not something new but its kind of fun actually. Haha! Yea, I seems to be that only idiot that say all these. Her beatings are terrible. Haha! What kind of palm she got. Lol! What else? Its just fun lah. Lol! Thanks Priscilia.
Four days of waiting. You can never understand how bad and terrible I felt deep inside. What I was waiting was not all those stuff you thought I wanted but a prove that you're not lying to me. I just can't stop myself from suspecting you, suspecting your sincere and your apology. You never know how much I hope I could trust you once more. Please, tell me, you're someone who is NOT lying to me and I'm wrong that I suspected you.