Tuesday, October 20, 2009 @ 8:08 PM
It have been one year or so and I've still not get out. Remember when all these just started, I was unclear about what's going on. Now, I seems to get a better idea, in fact, I got the whole picture. You once said you read my blog, I hope you're still. I hope there's still some connections between us although I know I'm dreaming. Remember how I attempt to end all these, it was like the most tragic thing in my life. I knew I'll turn back but I thought I should take a break. Now, I'm back again. I've learned control myself better this time after getting so many times of rejects, left out. Nobody encourages me, nobody thinks I'm right. I'm like an idiot who's going to make the same mistake again. I'm going to walk into this familiar place and ended up crying when I come out. I know all these will happen but I can't stop myself from commiting this mistake. I know I can't lie anymore, I know I still care and I always do. I won't expect anything from you anymore but I just wish you had never hate/dislike and you'll never.