Thursday, October 29, 2009 @ 9:48 AM
Having my O's now. I screwed up my English, please please let me pass! Gonna work hard for other subjects. :)
People see it as an improvement between us, I see it at first too but I ended up feeling more unsecured. I know, I can never expect anything more from you even though it looks like you are willing to, but the fact is you're always giving my false hopes that I'm so sick of it. I hate bringing my courage again and again just to get all those bad replies from you. Do you know how hurting it was? Remember that day, what you did was so unbelievable and I can't deny I felt happy about it, at the same time, I'm scared of losing it once again. How I hoped it could last forever, how I hoped this won't stop. Every time I ended it, I felt so pain but I have to because I want to walk further with you. I have to control myself, so that I can still have you as a friend. I've thought a lot this few days, "we don't suit each other.", its a fact. I shouldn't be wasting time on you but my conclusion is, let me be, I can't stop myself.