I had a dream yesterday. I thought you're actually telling me something but I think I guessed wrongly. Haha. You must be laughing at me if you really intend to tell me something else. I thought for the whole day, I couldn't understand what you're trying to say. Although the message in the dream you send me was rather obvious you're saying you're not contacting us anymore but.. How can you just leave like that? I'm sure you won't. You won't bare to leave just like that, like how much I don't want you to leave me that time, even until now. I rather give up what I thought you wanted to give me than losing you, my important friend. Although its already a fact but can I be stubborn for once? Everytime I look at my contacts, I really really want to text you but it'll for sure be the dumbest thing to do, how I hope I can just be dumb so I'll feel better. Do you know? Everytime I think about you, I still could not accept you left. You never seem to leave, you always seem to be there, just there. But whenever I couldn't see you every starting and ending of the year I felt lost suddenly. Every year, I'm waiting for that day, you are the one who makes me wants to go there, that place where I could find no one else. Now, I feel even more..lost! You said you'll be there. I wont blame, I wont be unhappy because you never make me feel that. ChanHong, how are you? I really wonder and I really want to know. Its going one year, when? When can I really accept you're gone?