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Saturday, December 27, 2008 @ 11:21 PM
It was a long journey, I don't complain, I don't find it a waste of time. Thoughts occupied my mind. Thinking what should I do later, how should I say, how should I act. I rehearsed myself again and again. When I'm there, standing beside you, I seems to be something invisible. Left out, not welcome, thats how I felt. You can say I'm thinking too much, I'm a nuisance, whatever you want but thats what I felt. How I hope I could stay a little while more but your actions gave me no courage to do that. I hate you! Why? Why do that to me? How dare you shattered my heart! You are a bastard! No one had ever let me felt like that. I had never felt so bad in my whole life. You're like stabbing me with a knife. I will never forget, when I was going up the bus, something was stopping me, I can't help to think twice although I know I can't turn back anymore. So what if I went back? What will I get? More hurting facts? Try. So what if I kept on trying? So what if I never give up? Is there a change in anything? Insist. I insist that I must not give up this time but you're forcing me too.
Friday, December 26, 2008 @ 2:56 PM
2008 is coming to an end. And this post is specially for people who stayed by my side all these while.
Priscilia.
I don't know how much I'll have to thank you. Thank you for all the companies, thank you for your lame stories, thank you for listening my grandmother stories, thank you for always always being with me and of course thank you for being a good friend. Thanks Priscilia. We knew each other for 4 years but I strongly believe, our friendship will never stop here. :) I love you. Sorry for that 2 lies! Haha!
Geraldine.
Don't worry, I'll never forget you. I know you know. Haha! Thanks woman! Really. Reamember what we said in the begining of this year? Nomatter how hard is it, how much time we need to put in your studies, we must never give up. Remember? I do. Haha! We were sitting beside each other, wondering how we'll do for our N level. Its over now, nomatter how we did, I know we really did what we promise ouselves. :) You motivated me. Haha. Thanks for always supporting me, staying with me. Thanks! Lets never get drifted. :)
Nicole.
I never regret going back EK. You never fail to make my day. :) I love K-ing with you. Haha! Spending time with you is never a waste of time, I do enjoy. :) Love ya!
Maeve.
Thanks for everything woman. You're a great friend. Really. :) Someone who I can really talk to and thanks for keeping my secrets! Haha! Lets work hard together next year. Meet up regularly! I love you. :) Always my love.
KaiWen.
Although I didn't really get to see you often this year but I still love you! :) Thanks!
ChiKong.
You funny crap! Stay happy and cheerful! You're my idol! Haha! Love ya.
ChanHong.
I don't know where are you now. Anyway, I still do miss and love you. Stay happy nomatter where are you alright. :) Thanks friend.
Andy.
Although I didn't know you for long but anyway, nice to know you. Really. I'm sorry for always treating you as a sub. But anyway, I really like you as a friend. :)
Family.
Never suspect how much I need and love your! :D
.
I don't know how I can close up our gap anymore but anyway, you're always love. :) Sorry for all the rubbish I've did. :)
Mandy.
I love you! Let it be short and sweet. :)
To other people I know.
Hey! I love your too! Haha!
Friday, December 12, 2008 @ 9:56 PM
I walked round and round. You occupied half of my mind. Remember you were once with me, standing beside me, talking to me. Remember how you laugh at my stupid actions, telling me you don't know how to communicate with me, telling me why are you here for and more. You made me love that place. Remember from the starting of the year, when I'm leaving. Remember when we went for that dinner. Remember I went down just to see you. Remember whatever happened between us. Its not much but not little too. I don't know what I could do now, just to recall whatever that happen? I'm sick and tired. Really.
Saturday, December 06, 2008 @ 10:52 PM
Treat me better, can you?
Wednesday, December 03, 2008 @ 9:22 PM
Hello! Had great time with EK friends this two days. Went Nebo to play some board games after work with Nicole and ZhiHui. So sad that Maeve couldn't join us, she's sick. Yea. Hope she okay now. The games are quite fun actually but because the number of people, its not that fun. The people there are friendly. A girl name Madel is really cute and funny. Haha. That 22years old guy is friendly too. Haha. Laugh like mad. And I did that stupid dare thingy, its freaking embarrassing. Lol. Okay. Went K-box with Nicole, ShiMei and ShiHui today. Its like..6 hours. Its really fun. Lol. Sing my hearts out! Lol. Then. Yea.
I'm confused now. Isn't that what I always wanted? Why I feel afraid?
Monday, December 01, 2008 @ 2:17 PM
