ChanHong.

I know you can never see this post anymore. But I just want to say all this. Thank you for everything. I remember I once doubt, whether the first step I moved was right. Now I know, its a right move. If I didn't msg you at that time, although we knew each other for long, I guess we'll never have the chance to talk and getting to know each other better. ChanHong, I remember once I send you this msg. Some sort of chain msg. Message asking, If one day I die what is the last thing you want to tell me. I remember you said you'll never forget me. ChanHong, I'll never forget you too. You're always a very nice person in my heart nomatter what had happened before, afterall I still likes you a lot. Your words I'll never forget. You had never failed to make me feel better. And your smile cheers me up. I'll study hard. I will. Remember our deal? We must smile to get rid of all the sad stuff. I will do that. Nomatter what happens I'll stay strong like you do, always showing the positive side of you. The most beautiful thing is a smile on somebody face right? I remember. I remember. And I'll always remember that. ChanHong, although we're not that close. But you do stand a important role in my heart, a very special friend. I thank you for everything. Everything. I'll never forget you, I love you.

~ Rest in Peace.

It's last day of Prelims today although theres one more CME. Lol. Haha.
Meet Nicole for my clothes today. I decided to went there early, hoping to have some shopping. But I didn't know shops there are really limited. Haha. I was like.. Argh! So little shops? Don't even have a shop that sell clothing! I was super shock. I'm so bored that I almost go crazy! Haha! Yea. Who call me so early go. Lol. FInally I was Nicole, holding big big plastic bag. I seriously thanked her so much. She's so nice. Helping me to order and even meet me to give me the clothes. I love her. I waited for Boon to come cause I so long never see him. Saw TY, JingHan and Aunty Jean. Aunty jean was so cute. She gave me a hug. I was super shocked! Haha. And I realised JingHan often work, which I don't think is a bad thing. Haha! Yea.. Thanks NICOLE!
Theres night study today. Rushed home to try on my clothes and went for night study. Yea. Haha. Very little people went. Wanted to have dinner with them but I'm having a stomache, I can't stand straight. Lol.


Although I couldn't get to talk to you but at least I'm glad you are still friendly towards me.

By treating me bad does not work!

It'll never works by the way.

Maybe it'll work by treating me nice. :)

` Sort of weird. But I'm getting used to your that kind of..disappointing character.Haha.

I hope you do understand my feeling.

Don't hate me. :(

Having Prelims now. Finally History and Chemistry paper is over! But I think I gonna start studying for my N level! Its COMING! Haha.








Should I go for it or waste the chance again?
But I don't know whether thats what I want.

Hello! Headed grandma's house after tuition. So long I never go there, because of my tuition. Yea. I was the last to reach there so I've to finish all the food. I knew that will happen but I don't mind. But when I reached there and I saw the food I was quite shocked. Haha! Are you sure I'm the last to eat? Lol. Is so much. I think 3 ppl can eat that! And poor me have to finish it! Haha. But It is cooked by my dear gandma, of course I have to eat. Haha. First time eat so many prawns! Haha. But I looked at the prawns left I know I have to call for help. Lol. My father simply ignored me. Thank god my uncle helped me to finish it. Haha.





I happened to read those notes. Now I'm so so so so so HAPPY! Haha. I've not had this feeling for long. I'm back to what Geraldine see me as in the past! I can't believe I actually thought of just letting the times stop here, as in remember the times. But now, I don't think so. I've so many other things to do and learn and experience. Why care about those craps. haha! Omg! So happy now. Can you people feel my happiness??

Today is Wednesday. And this is the first time I feel so happy when it is Wednesday. Why? Because after the Social Studies test today, I'm free! ( For one week.) Haha. The test today was.. alright. I'll see the result before making any conclusion.

Headed Downtown to get something. Of course I'll visit EK when I'm there. Haha. Saw Daniel and JingHan. I think I stayed at the ring place for quite long. Haha. Yea. I was chatting with JingHan, hoped I didn't interrupt him. Met Angela and Randal there. Yea. Went off when JingHan went for his break. Headed WhiteSands to return my books. Then walk around and blah~ Haha.


Have this conversation with JingHan which I think is really funny.

Me: Do you have brother?
JH: (Shake his head.)
Me: Younger brother?
JH: no.
Me: older sister?
JH: no.
Me: older brother?
JH: I only have younger brother.

After saying that sentence, he gave me that stupid look and started laughing. Simply can't take it. So funny. And there are still some but I can only remember this at this moment.

OkayOkay.. Stopping here. Bye!

Remember how happy am I when you gave me a glance. One glance from you made my day, a fruitful one. Until now, I could still remember how happy am I at that point of time. I could still remember how I felt. I thought at least you care and its enough. For that past 2 years. You're the one, always the one who made my day. Not by talking to me. Not by doing anything but just letting me to see you. Thats so enough. I felt blessed and lucky for that. Really and seriously. That sounds really dumb but thats what made me like you for so long, so long. Even when you're not there. I struggled, I hold on like holding something so precious and it is. I never wants to let it go. Why? Because feelings for you are not simple. Not at all. But, recently, I found out some hurting facts. I realise something. Things that are often felt so happy about it was not as beautiful as I thought. I realised the glance you gave. Does not happen because you care. Does not happen because you want to. But its natural. Everybody does that. Its all because you felt sorry towards me, its because you pity me, right? So thats the fact. Why did I understand all this so late? I finally know, I'm wrong. Its a wrong decision to tell you my feelings. If I didn't, you would not feel stress. You would not feel sorry towards me. I thought its a right decision to tell you before that. Because at least, I felt relieved. But I didn't spare a thought for you. I'm selfish, I didn't thought of what you would feel. I thought just not talking to you mean you won't feel stress and don't like me or something but I'm wrong. Now I thinking. Whatever I did after I told you my feelings , you felt irritated and you simply don't need it. Right? I'm feeling so dumb now. Whats the thing that I felt so happy about. I'm just thinking too much.

I'm sorry.

Time flies. So fast one year had passed. Yea. My family members come my house today. I love it when so people come together. Yea.. Should be studying for my prelims but instead, I played mahjiong the whole day. Lol. I earned $6. I think. Haha. We have another date on 17 uh. Haha. Its damn hell fun today and many funny things happened. I sort of have those kind of bonding feeling. haha. I love it.


I LOVE FAMILY GATHERING.

~Gonna study hard for my Prelims.

Hi people. I'm supposedto not have such long day today but end up? Lol. I was too confident that I didn't need to spent so much time on the background. But I realised I'm so wrong. I think I spend more than 3hours there! Thats so.. Argh! Haa. I still have so much to do. Trw is the last day. I gonna finish it by today! God! Haha. And I'm still updating here. But its okay. Haha. Lol. Okay. I guess I shall stop here. Cannot afford to waste anymore time. Time is precious. Remember? Haha! Okay okay. :)







I've decided. I'll wait, nomatter how long it takes. At least this time, I know I'm waiting for something that worth my time. :)

Geraldine. You're right. Maybe I should really do something but.. Haha. I can't. Lol.