Saturday, December 27, 2008 @ 11:21 PM
It was a long journey, I don't complain, I don't find it a waste of time. Thoughts occupied my mind. Thinking what should I do later, how should I say, how should I act. I rehearsed myself again and again. When I'm there, standing beside you, I seems to be something invisible. Left out, not welcome, thats how I felt. You can say I'm thinking too much, I'm a nuisance, whatever you want but thats what I felt. How I hope I could stay a little while more but your actions gave me no courage to do that. I hate you! Why? Why do that to me? How dare you shattered my heart! You are a bastard! No one had ever let me felt like that. I had never felt so bad in my whole life. You're like stabbing me with a knife. I will never forget, when I was going up the bus, something was stopping me, I can't help to think twice although I know I can't turn back anymore. So what if I went back? What will I get? More hurting facts? Try. So what if I kept on trying? So what if I never give up? Is there a change in anything? Insist. I insist that I must not give up this time but you're forcing me too.